I used to like Kpop Idols, I was addicted watching them, copying them and following what they do, their diets, and their workout routines. I wanted to become skinny and be liked by other people, like the idols. I wanted to become Yoona from Girls Generation, that was during my freshman year in high school. I want to wear make-up, and dress-up just like her. It was difficult, you know, not being you and trying to be someone else. One day, I got tired of it. It was exhausting. Instead, I chose to be Me. I BELIEVE that we are all born different for a reason. We are born to do different things, think different things, and love different things. So I changed my goal. I no longer exercise because I want to be Yoona or because I want the cutest guy in school to notice me. I no longer burn my eyebrows studying because I want to be the perfect all A’s student who is afraid of failing because of her own high expectations. My goals are unlike before because I want to be Me. And like, Matthew McConaughey, I know that I will always have to chase Me.
It is a never ending process, much more like a challenge. And I am up for it! No matter how difficult it is, I am preparing myself for it. I am excited. I don’t know what I am excited for but I know it is going to be something great, extraordinary perhaps. I have to be prepared when that day comes because I don’t like uncertainty. Not knowing what the future has lying ahead of Me bothers me. And, the only thing that keeps me from being bothered about the future is BELIEVING.
-xoxo
ada
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