"So 'Live in the Moment,' I tell myself."
-Dr. Alice Howland from the movie Still Alice.
I used to be the type of person who would always plan ahead. I had planners for every school year. I plan my chores every hour of every day. I was the super-organized-over-achiever student who was always on top of everything. I had to. It is the only way I could calm myself from the uncertainties that lies ahead of me. So I did. I graduated high school "successfully" being 5th in my class. I was a summa cum laude who will be, as the announcer said, attending the University of San Antonio. Yay! amazing isn't it?! However, after a few years. . . the glory days has ended. Storm has passed and then again I saw the light in the day.
Everything that I planned 2 years ago. . . has slowly faded into having no plans at all. It was saddening, of course it is. I didn't know what will happen to me. Until, one day I just stopped planning. If I do need to plan or to remind myself of something, I place it on my phone's calendar and I let it do the reminding. I started living in the moment, doing every possible thing I can think of to be happy and free. I try not to look at my friends achievement and focus on whatever makes me and my family happy. After all, the ones who truly loves you are the only ones that matters, and most of the time they are the ones who are living the moment with you.
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